last night in my dream dad came to visit me.  i received a phone call and
he said he would come.  i figured it was only going to be a metaphorical
visit.  he said to meet him at spud bar.  it was a different sort of place,
more like a place to gather and visit and just spend time. they didn't care
if you spent any money.  there were benches to sit on in the front and flower
boxes and when i looked across the road it looked like brisbane, not melbourne.
i sat and waited for him, hoping no one else i knew would show up because i
wanted all the time alone with him.  jade was there in a top that exposed her
back and made her spine look like that of an alien or robot.  she sat next
to me and i brushed my hand lightly against her back, feeling each vertebra
curiously.  she pulled away, turned around, and said "that's effective" in
that sarcastic way she has, as if to tell me i was supposed to be giving
her a deep tissue massage but was just completely inept.  i tried to explain
that my touch was just a show of affection but gave up and walked away.  the
rain fell down hard in huge fat drops and i ran inside but the roof leaked
and it was raining inside as well.  he was there, in the corner and i couldn't
believe any of it was real.  i ran to him with my arms open like a scene
in a bad 40s romance film.  "how can you be here?!?" i asked and he said "you
needed me so i came."  then i just lay there, on his lap, in his arms and
felt the warmth and comfort he had brought for me.