i'm longing for a community.  i want people to fall asleep on.  i'm missing
the days when elly would tease me about my catlike sleeping and we would all
just be in the same place at the same time.  sometimes we would interact and
sometimes we would be working on our own projects and sometimes someone would
say hey let's go get coffee and we would.  i want to stay up all night in
strange places and experience new things with old friends and know that 
everyone loves eachother because you can't not love someone you know that well.
i remember riding home from s5's house late at night after hot tubbing or
just geeking or watching stupid movies.  i don't remember who was in which
relationship with who else.  none of that matters right now.  it was all
so incestuous and delicious at the same time and there was comfort.  it
was one of those situations where you don't realize how great it was until
it's gone.  i miss that.